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[ETERNAL - 03.06.2K3]
I hope I�m with you eternally.
I guess it�s easy for you to see,
That forever I have waited for this day,
I�ve wanted to be with you in every way.
I need your arms around me.
As I face this growing tragedy,
I look to you for protection from reality,
You�re all I need each day,
I hope I�m with you eternally.
All I need from you, if I may,
Is your loving presence and its shining rays.
Protect me from this awful sea
Of dense and sharp veracity.
You�re the one true thing I have, and I�ve got one thing to say,
I hope I�m with you eternally.
[TOGETHER - 03.05.2K3]
Through your eyes
I can feel the world,
Taste your breath,
Breathe your soul.
I feel your cold hands upon me
The sense of needing rests within
Dive into my deep embrace
Let the fires of my heart warm you.
Together our hearts can melt
The greatest glacier ever known,
Together we can lose ourselves,
Breathe into our own eternity.
They
say you can�t live off of love alone,
Well why not let love live off of us?
The deepness to which our hearts extend
Can fill those of a million, with infinity still left over.
[YEARNING - 03.03.2K3]
Cold winter nights,
Spent alone and away so far,
There�s no one there for comfort
I�m all alone this time.
There�s someone out there,
I call for her,
But can she hear me?
There�s no response, only emptiness,
Is there someone for whom I long?
Heartache is never bliss,
Yet it causes yearning so deep
That there is no distance
Which the love cannot transverse.
Through all that I feel
There is one thing above the rest,
My heart is calling out now,
I still wait for the response,
Wait in the cold winter night.
[TRUTH - 10.29.2K2]
With the soft glow of your light,
The warmth I feel when I�m with you,
Your touch soothes me from fright,
This love I feel is unlimited.
The warmth I feel when I�m with you,
Shelters me from the dark,
This love I feel is unlimited,
And shelters me like a tree�s bark.
Sheltering me from the dark,
His love protecting me from harm,
And shelters me like a tree�s bark,
I am forever embraced in your arms.
Your touch soothes me from fright,
With the soft glow of your light.
[SOMEWHERE - 09.30.2K2]
(co-written with
Michelle)
I wish
that I was somewhere with you.
It has been so long since that one day
That day you left and ran away;
Now here I lie afraid and alone,
And my heart feels as if were stone;
I wish I could have you here, to stay.
Now every day I sit and I wait
With horrid feelings I can�t negate;
It still seems as if I�m in a dream,
I wish that I was somewhere with you.
I hope my destiny shall be met,
And you will come back without regret;
This burning desire within me,
Can only be saved by you, so free.
I wish that I was somewhere with you.
[LIGHT - 06.12.2K2]
Enter
this dimension
Of warmth, cleansing sensation,
This light that flows from above
Has fallen upon me.
Breathing through the air,
My heart is lightened
By the spirit of the light,
Its glow emitting
The rays of warmth
That penetrate my every pore,
And open my eyes and soul
To the feelings of my heart.
This light
Causes this heartfelt bliss,
Awakens upon me,
Brings my senses
To a higher degree,
Everlasting, ever-cleansing,
This wondrous sensation,
Enlightening me,
Freeing my spirit
From the dark depths below.
This light
I cannot do without
So important that it is,
Without it I would be lost
Lost in the depths of eternity
Forever without hope;
Destiny shattered.
This glow emitting, necessary
For my well-being,
Radiates from one point,
Focuses on my heart
And cleanses my soul and mind.
This light
Is from one source
One which is so natural,
So beautiful,
So lovely, energetic;
A light that can only radiate
From one that loves me so,
One, whose feelings are compressed,
Yet there, they still are,
One who is the only being
To understand me, show compassion,
This beam of light, everlasting,
Is from you, the one I love.
[BURNING - 02.03.2K2]
What is this feeling inside me -
This feeling I can�t compress,
Is it good, or is it bad,
It�s making such a mess;
I always get this feeling
Whenever I�m around
This one, specific person
For which my care is profound.
I wonder if this person
Cares the same about me,
Or perhaps my time is wasted
And I have failed to see
That her care is for another,
Oh, I wish that that isn't true;
This - what is this feeling -
Is making me all but blue.
It burns
Very deep inside,
All I have left
Is my pride -
So what should I do,
What should I say,
If I go up to her
Sometime today?
Why must I care so much,
Why is my heart so open to this girl,
What can I see in her,
Can she see that in me?
These questions, no one can answer
Except for her, and I -
Yet, my nerve is dissipated
And my insides fell like they're in flames
I can't think clearly
With my brain anymore,
But perhaps, it is possible,
To think with my heart instead.
But wait -
Is that what it is?
That feeling, that which possesses me so,
Can it be...
Love?
My heart says yes, my brain says no,
Why is it so complicated,
So intricate,
So deep,
Why can't it be straightforward,
Instead of being oblique.
This love; it takes up all of my thoughts
All of my free time,
And even the time that isn't free,
And yet it's just a feeling,
One extremely complex feeling
That won't go away,
Constantly clouding my mind
And my judgment.
And despite all this,
Despite all of the faults,
Once the pieces all connect,
Once the suffering makes its point,
The true feeling shows itself.
And this -
Is the greatest feeling in all existence.
[SILENCE - 04.25.2K3]
Long awaited silence
Fallen upon me,
The feelings all taken away �
I�m left with drudging memories.
It�s so quiet here all alone,
My heart opened like a cavity,
My mind lost in the nothingness,
Deprived of all sanity.
I witness the downfall of all emotion,
Clouded fears dwell within �
I can�t face the dreaded agony
That looms beneath my skin.
Raindrops fall around my soul
Looming expanse and eternity,
Reflecting the anguish and sorrow
That live in me for infinity.
Gushing rivers of pure thought
Swell with desires and dreams
Broken and left unfulfilled �
Darkness littered in streams.
Long awaited silence,
Cold depths of stillness,
Burning chasms of solitude,
And long forgotten happiness�
Once vivid memories I sustained,
Now remain nothing but echoes of pain.
[EMPTINESS - 03.06.2K3]
Today its all over
There�s nothing I can do,
I�m lost and I�m afraid
There�s no way I can start anew.
Today my heart left me,
It was dragged in the dirt,
I felt the life being drained from me,
My breath was left inert.
So long, sweet pleasure,
All the nights spent in your arms,
Your love embracing me,
Protecting me from harm.
But now, it�s all gone,
I feel your warmth no more,
You stole my heart from within me,
Left me alone and poor.
Why did you have to stay
Around me so long,
If all you really loved me,
Why would I sing this song?
You�re gone, I�m left alone,
I know I should feel so glad,
Yet there�s an emptiness growing within me,
You were the only love I ever had.
[TUNNEL - 03.03.2K3]
Traveling down this tunnel,
Darkness on all sides,
Its cold and its lonely,
I�m on a one way ride�
I don�t know where I�m going,
All I know is that you�re not here,
I miss your warmth around me,
I really wish you were near.
As I wander further,
I think of your gentle touch,
The softness of your sweet caress,
I miss you oh so much.
This dark, ominous path
Is not one to wander alone,
Come nearer, guide me,
Through this path of stone.
But alas you are not here,
And I struggle with the path
Cold and misty in front of me,
I face the darkness� wrath
With no one at my side,
I miss everything you have to give,
Please come back to me,
So that I may live, again.
There�s no light at the end of this tunnel, without you.
[SENSELESS - 10.29.2K2]
(on the sniper attacks in DC)
These senseless acts of violence
Occurring all over the planet,
Everywhere there is terror,
People huddling and shaking in fear,
Everywhere, including our sheltered nation.
These terrible atrocities,
The killing of so many,
One man�s sick ambition for death
These senseless acts of violence.
A �sniper,� as he calls himself,
Murdering such innocent lives,
Acting as if he knew it all,
Killing off humanity as if we were bugs,
With no regard for anything but his own desires;
These senseless acts of violence.
[VISION OF LIES - 10.17.2K2]
(co-written with Michelle)
One day in my life,
I�ll look back on things long gone,
I�ll look at all my accomplishments and merits,
The lessons I have learned in life.
All my memories of wondrous times,
Every nostalgic thought within me,
Remembering fruitful events I cherished,
Among many of them I didn�t.
Yet the road I travel was not always cheery,
There were many mistakes along the way,
Many things that were misunderstood,
Things I wish I could take back,
So many lies that I told�
Lies not only to others,
But to the one that is most important,
The one that would be myself.
Sometimes I would act
As if I was in bliss and harmony,
Faking my image to convince myself
That everything was just fine.
Yet deep down I knew,
That things were not okay,
Yet I had to maintain my image
And further deny my troubles.
And this all led too deep,
I was drowning in self misery,
I couldn�t face the fact
That I was so much different on the inside.
But this; it has not happened yet,
I am still very young�
This vision will not happen,
Should I be true to what I believe.
[HEARTBREAK - 10.07.2K2]
I know you're sad, and feel like crying
You seem so lifeless, like you're dying
I know your heart feels as if it�s on fire,
And he is still your one desire
You thought your love was meant to be,
But you were blind, you could not see
I know you're terrified of how you feel
That love is stupid and not real
You feel so stranded and alone
Your heart is turning into stone
It hurt you deep down inside
And now you think you cant survive
Now that your love is dead
Its time for you to move ahead
Don't look back at your sorrow
Just look ahead to tomorrow
There is a light, a ray of hope,
Its there for you to help you cope
This pain you feel, ill help you through
And eventually you can start anew.
[DIMENSIONAL - 05.26.2K2]
Walking into this place again
My heart glows with recognition
(What happened here
So long ago...?)
This place is full of memories
Full of things long past
(For what reason was I brought here...?)
It is within the current dimension
Existing here (As do I)
Yet the secrets it holds
Too many to be counted
Excessively pound at my mind
(Why only in this place...)
Memories of peace..happiness...love..
(love?)
Forgotten through the course of time
Filling this place,
Breaching my mind,
Penetrating my thoughts...
(Why is it haunting me so...)
Was it destined...how is it possible..
(Am i here, or is it imagined..)
But the only place these feelings have been felt in..
Was when I was
With you.
[RAIN HAIKU - 10.23.2K2]
The soft sound I hear
Pattering upon windows,
Rains down on the night.
With no cares at all
Its wings flap hard in the wind,
Flying far away.
[SHE - 10.15.2K2]
(by Grace)
She throws a glance out the window
'Cause out there, it's paradise
She'd be lost if she set a foot outside
Like a caged hummingbird,
Longing for extrication
Blushing like a fisherman's wife.
The heat of her fingertip melts away
The frost, white, sharp, dangling on the glass
As her eyes stare and her fingertip freezes
A triangle of water drops paint
Lush blossoms and a sumptuous greenness
[RUSH - 02.09.2K2]
Standing above the mountain's edge
The snow falling down to his feet,
He look below to the base
And prepare for an extraordinary feat.
He narrows his feet together
And brings his poles up high,
Then he kicks off, and down he goes
Right into the sky.
The thrill is exhilarating
Flying down the hill,
He dashes between the trees that cross him
And continue down still;
Taking few moments to glance around
At the world surrounding him,
He continues, through the snow
With little time to trim.
This feat, I am watching,
Wishing I could do it too
Instead I am ski-challenged,
That much is true.
But the awe inspiring moments
For which this skier partakes in
Still lifts me, and fills me up,
Deep beneath the skin.
[EXTINGUISHED - 10.16.2K2]
The cycle turns once more,
The thread of life had been cut,
Extinguished, in an instant,
To be shunned in eternal darkness.
Gone is the spirit that once inhabited it,
But lasting is the memory,
Forever shall it remain
In the depths of eternity.
Tossed into the ground,
To be forgotten about,
And fade into the shadows,
Becoming one with the darkness.
The life led was a happy one,
Full of immortal bliss,
A shame that bliss cannot be carried
Beyond this existence.
The light will shine no more,
Upon that once gleeful face,
Gone is all the expression,
Given in to the abyss.
May the soul rest in peace,
�Though the body rests in pieces,
For soon enough it will be,
Nothing but a memory.
[BEYOND TIME - 02.18.2K2]
There will come a time
In all of our lives
Or, to be more exact,
At the end of our lives,
Where we will all meet
Our final destination,
The place in which we have
Prepared for our entire life.
As we take our final breath,
On this marble of a planet,
Our existence as it is known to us
Will be ended, however,
What will happen to our spirits,
Our souls, our memories
That we have gathered,
Where will they go once they are free?
No longer shall they be imprisoned
In this shell we call a body,
No longer will they
Be controlled by time,
Our thoughts, memories, spirits,
They will be opened up,
Freed to do as they please,
And found, by whoever finds them.
But this place that they will drift in,
This place, beyond time,
It will not be just a simple void,
Devoid of all we know.
Nor will it be the perfect world
That we all have heard about,
Because nothing can be perfect,
Instead it will be something else.
It will be a place unique to our own thinking,
Built upon the very dreams and memories
That we have had throughout our lives.
It will be what we make of it,
And what we have made of life,
Our halcyon paradise, should we choose,
Or something more, or less,
Our final destiny, embraced,
Not decided by fate,
Thus we should live the moment,
For one day,
It will control our eternity.
[BREW - 03.05.2K3]
With no one here for me
I�m alone as you can see,
Left behind like the morning dew
As empty as a pot with no coffee to brew.
Burning, yearning sensation
Fills every combination
Of every pore throughout the skin,
Everything that I am in,
Submersed in this cold reality
Trapped in this darkness forever eternally.
At length time seems to stop
And all matter seems to drop,
Hits the floor and continues on
Leaks down the porch and into the lawn.
Separated with no clue
Of how it can get back to you,
Drifting on endlessly without a plan,
Falling forever, as far as it can.
And this you say, is of no matter to you,
But look again, and see, the coffee has begun to brew.
[A DIVISIBLE SPIRIT - 06.19.2K2]
(By Grace)
Once, I knew the dawn-
I watched it, every other day,
As I saw it dissolve into the sun's awe-
that radiant blackness, no longer a ray.
It - crushed, like a fragile merit
A divisible spirit.
Once, I knew the rain
I stood under it, feeling the agony
of scattered bits of delightful pain
Along with the pouring, torturous melody
This is all my heart could inherit-
A divisible spirit.
No longer strong,
Yet no longer wrong
I shall continue to be,
Though I'll cease to be me.
Striving to be-
All else but an invisible hermit,
All else but a divisible spirit.
[SHINING - 09.28.2K2]
It comes shining from above,
Its gleaming light falls upon me,
Pure white like a dove;
I am surrounded by it, so free.
Its gleaming light falls upon me,
Soft and warm it glows,
I am surrounded by it, so free;
The gentle warmth, so well, I know.
Pure white like a dove,
It comes shining from above.
